There is a book "A Road Back from Schizophrenia: A Memoir"[1]. Arnhild Lauveng came back from schizophrenia, got a degree in psychology and wrote the book, describing how it feels to have a schizophrenia. She describes doctors too. A bad ones and also those, who helped her to get back from schizophrenia.

I believe you would like that book, her experiences are like yours.

[1] https://www.amazon.com/Road-Back-Schizophrenia-Memoir/dp/161...