Check out David Burn's latest book[0] about modern CBT techniques. Burns originally popularized CBT with his writing in the 80s. "Feeling Great" is an updated modern version with the latest techniques. You might find the content itself useful, or the descriptions a good guide for techniques to try with your therapist or strategies for finding a therapist you might work well with.

Sorry you've been feeling this way. Good luck!

[0] https://www.amazon.com/Feeling-Great-Revolutionary-Treatment...