Introduction to Probability, 2nd Edition by Dimitri P. Bertsekas, John N. Tsitsiklis. It is textbook for EECS Probability course at MIT and very well written for beginners.

Additionally, there are video lectures available on MIT OCW which mirror this book closely.

https://www.amazon.com/Introduction-Probability-2nd-Dimitri-...

While I did take courses in probability, linear algebra, and lots of calculus, until recently, I forgot most of the probability and all of the linear algebra I learned in school. As for calculus, I only remembered how to take basic derivatives. In any case, I've been spending the past month brushing up on my linear algebra and probability, and it's been a struggle, but now that I'm motivated and under no time pressure to relearn the material, I find it way more fascinating than I did in college. In fact, I skipped tons of my linear algebra classes because I thought the subject was dry and dull. I also rushed through my probability and stats homework just so I could get a good grade on them. I think if you're motivated, and you can do basic math, you should be able to educate yourself in calculus, probability, and linear algebra. It'll be a struggle, but with motivation, you'll be able to pick up the concepts.

for probability and stats: https://www.amazon.com/Introduction-Probability-2nd-Dimitri-...

for linear algebra: https://www.amazon.com/Coding-Matrix-Algebra-Applications-Co...

this was my college calculus textbook: https://www.amazon.com/Calculus-7th-James-Stewart/dp/0538497.... I can't comment if it was good or not because by college, I had taken calculus twice so it was all a refresher

best of luck! You sound educated enough (yes, I'm judging from the couple sentences you wrote) that I think you won't have any problems acquiring math knowledge with persistence.