Man, you'd really benefit from reading The Career Stories Method by Carrie Twig .
It's about defining yourself professionally in a holistic way. It's not that you're a bad this or that, it's just that you're marketing yourself (to yourself and to others) not by the things you love and that you're good at. You need a professional narrative that's grounded in your personality. It's like that story about a fish being depressed because he feels he should be a dog.
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